Tightlaced Chaos

The last few days here have been absurdly cold. Which means a whole lot of sitting around hiding from the weather… which means too much time to think about *exactly* how horny I am … and how much longer I am going to be that way…

On Friday i made some cute little nooses for my nipples… left them tortured and tied all day. I edged a bunch in the evening, plugged and dressed in corset and stockings, wearing my collar. I was a mess. A sensitive, squirmy, drippy mess. 

I went to bed that night, trying not to squirm in bed, trying not to accidentally rub my sensitive nipples across the rough flannel sheets, or grind my swollen clit into the bed… I dont think I was successful. I found myself wondering if my clit is just going to be permanently swollen now… just always excited, ready to be touched. *Aching* to be teased. 

Yesterday morning I woke up horny. The first conscious I thought i had was “ Good girls never cum. I am a good girl”. I was still kind of sleepy/dreamy - no alarm to wake me up meant I was getting up in my own time, which is always a treat, so my brain could wake up as slowly as it wanted to. This is what it chose to tell me in that sleepy suggestible state? On repeat. Over and over that rang through my mind until I finally woke up enough to be curiously aware of what was happening. 

What does that say about me, I wonder, if that is the message my subconscious is sending me? 

That set me up for an insatiably horny day yesterday… Dripping and sensitive, unable to play, but constantly thinking about how I could be teased. 

I went to bed over sensitized again last night, after F fucked my ass and left my clit throbbing and needy… Edged and tormented with no release. 

I woke up again this morning with the same thoughts, body on fire, thinking “Good girls never cum. I am a good girl”. 

Arousal is taking over my mind. Im ok with it. I love being horny all the time, willing and obedient. It’s like background music. Only it’s background arousal… reminding me every time I notice how wet my panties are, or brush a nipple accidentally… that I havent cum in almost a year.. .that I wont in almost another… Just the thought is enough to drive me mad with desire. 

Only 11.5 more months to go, right?? 

What if I dont want to cum at all by then?!

What if I cant?!?